Pour out my heart

Here I am, once again
I pour out my heart
For I know that You hear
Every cry
You are listening
No matter what state my heart is in

You are faithful to answer
With words that are true
And a hope that is real
As I feel Your touch
You bring a freedom
To all that’s within
In the safety of this place
I’m longing to ...

Pour out my heart
To say that I love You
Pour out my heart
To say that I need You
Pour out my heart
To say that I’m thankful
Pour out my heart
To say that You’re wonderful

This song just says it--right now--what i am feeling. I'm pouring out my heart. So many times i cry and i feel so alone, but you hear every cry. I fail to believe that a lot of the time. i feel like if i could just have someone to talk to--but they never fully understand and in moments like these it seems even harder and more frustrating to explain to them the depths of your heart and your pain. i feel like if i could just have that guy ive had my eye on, hed make everything better--but then i realize that no one is perfect and that wouldnt be fair to him. i feel like if i could just turn the tv off that id become a better person--but then i just sit in silence with no clue on what to do next, so i turn the tv back on and go mindless. sometimes i think if i could just have someone to explain the pain to, all my deepest hurts and sorrows, the things i hide deep, then it would all be dealt with and gone--but then i realize no human is God and no one knows that pain except God and no one was there with me through all of it except God so why should i put all that on anyone except God. I think my desire and longing to be with someone is from God in a sense but at the same time, an insecurity of mine. wanting to be taken care of and provided for, emotionally spiritually and physically. i want him to be my prince charming. but there is a differnce between having a prince charming and having someone to dump all your crap on. and i think sometimes i just cry, for all kinds of things and for my self. and i think the crying will never stop until i learn to let go and letting go involves a certain amount of pouring my heart out, but not just to anyone, to God... being honest and truthful and forgiving and loving and childlike.